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GenAI creators are unhuman

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unhuman (adj.): not resembling or having the qualities of a human being.

I like buffets. I mix and match dishes that other people make. I make sure the sauce from one dish seeps into the rice. I let the chaat and samosas touch. I curate my plate perfectly. I have never looked at it and thought I was a chef.

I don't think people who make generative AI media are inhuman—a word often associated with cruelty, sadism, or intense apathy. I resent them for making the em dash look bad, but that word is still far too harsh. They might be compassionate and caring people. But they lack something that makes them human.

I understand the avaricious motivations. I struggle with the rest. They spend twelve seconds typing a prompt, and within a minute, they have twenty images. Which part gives them joy? When do they feel good? Do they treat it like a slot machine and feel rewarded when they get an image that doesn't look like pure slop? At least at a buffet, I get to appreciate the work of others. I understand the chef's intentions, even if there's some bastardization on my end.

Knowing that people use generative AI for concept art makes me queasy. I'd much rather have them use it for rendering. Larian Studios is using genAI at least "the same as they would use photos." I want them to go to a museum. A park. A library. Look at the sunset. Swing on the swings for a bit. Use Oblique Strategies. Shake a Magic 8 Ball. Relying on AI for concepts is as unhuman as it gets.

  1. "I'm not 100% sure you're actually seeing speed-ups... I don't actually think it accelerates things."

    Swen Vincke, founder of Larian Studios and advocate for genAI, on genAI.

Generative AI will degrade the quality of the next Divinity game. I don't know if anyone will notice, including myself. It might be small. An employee who works with ChatGPT placeholder text instead of lorem ipsum will have their writing process affected. I assume something in the brain breaks if a person were to look at AI distortions of Magic: The Gathering cards for hours every day. I wouldn't be surprised if Larian is rewarded for their honesty when they own up to letting 'placeholder' AI assets slip in.

I don't fully grasp my own feelings on the topic. Maybe I have these beliefs because they make me feel good about myself. I can't be the worst person possible because they exist. I care about the environment more, appreciate art more, and am more human than they are.

I ate most of a drawing when I was nine years old.

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I ate most of a drawing when I was nine years old. It was of a girl holding a skateboard. She likely had cool accessories, because she was intended to be the coolest girl possible. She wasn't. She was the drawing of a nine-year-old. So I ate most of her.

I needed her gone. My parents could have dug through my trash for the first time ever. Maybe it would be seen on a conveyor belt at a recycling plant. Someone could pick it up in a landfill. Good kids wouldn't set things on fire, which left me with only one option. I ripped her apart and ate her.

She didn't taste particularly bad. While physically unpleasant, I felt good about eating her. That piece of paper was a scourge, something that necessitated that I consume it. It was a heroic act to eat her. I spared my parents, honestly, the whole world, the pain of seeing that drawing. The nausea wore away with every shred I swallowed. Chewing the pieces alleviated the guilt of having been involved in her creation.

I've always felt alienated from what I've created and done. This feeling already extends to some sentences I've written. This was intended to be better. This was intended to be different. It never felt like I ate my own drawing. It was an entity separate from me. I was involved, sure, but I intended to draw the coolest girl possible. Not her.

I'd feel guilty if I opened a door and a bird flew inside. It wouldn't be mine, but it would be my fault. I see sparrows in airport terminals and sometimes in a big-box store. They probably don't have owners, but someone is responsible for letting them in. Eating her was my way of taking responsibility.

I made a website

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I don't know how to feel